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Since you broke my heart, everything has changed

It seems like myself have gone crazy and rearranged

I can’t help myself from remembering the memories

And I can’t pretend to say okay in very ease.

Now I always sleep with a tear on my eye

And when I hear a sad song I always cry

In the morning I always wake up late

Hoping for some text of yours and wait.

I’m thin and really getting thinner

I don’t wanna eat my breakfast and dinner

I’m so weird as what they have told

Cause I can’t hear my name when I was called.

Now all these happened since you left me

I became so weird and very crazy

Though I already knew we were done

But I can’t keep you out of my mind and just be gone.

I’m trying to help myself and get over

And find someone who would love me better

But I can’t accept the fact that I still love you

Though I keep on reminding myself we are through.

Why do I still feel the hurt and pain

It seems like I’m so empty and vain

I did my best to neglect and just flew

Yet why I still can’t forget you?#

“Do you still have the thing I gave you?”

“No. I think I already lost it.”

What do we call someone who does not value sentimental things given to them? Are they stupid? Dumb? Dull? Asshole? Or do they just don’t care at all?

Why do we give something to someone? Is that something just a something? Or is that someone just a someone? Of course not.

Just like magic, our love sprouted without logical and elaborative reasons. It was unexplainable how time and place became factors of our growing love. We even connected though we were aware our cables are incompatible. It was lovely how everything just popped out of nothing like magic. Or maybe I just thought it was lovely.

Because of the tricks of your love, we were able to share memories together. Not just memories but things too. I once thought we were rays with the same endpoint but have different strays. At least we had a common endpoint. We denied we are parallel lines. And because you picture a different horizon from mine, I gave you a book to repaint your version of horizon, or maybe just make it more vividly colored. But you did not even attempt to sneak a glance at my palette.

So instead, I gave you a hundred poems and an essay, hoping my seasoned words would change the style of your desired dish, or maybe just the plating of it. And even you did not took the countless chances to taste it out of your undeniable gluttony.

Now just like magic again, our love died without explanations. We may had the time but we were in the wrong season. Our love may have grown in the same place but a dry one. I guess I may be the one who killed it because of the too much sunlight I brought. I just wanted us to shine together. And you were there, for once never brave enough to sprinkle water to it.

It was fine after all. I was fine after all. What was not fine is that how can you not even keep a leaf from an endangered dead plant?

The things I gave you were already given. Whether or not you use it, you should at least just keep it. But with what you have done, I guess I’ll just call you a magician.

Just like how you started and ended things, you lost the books and the poems I gave you without a proper explanation. I was blinded by the magic you have inside. You have this extraordinary expertise of making a fool out of someone with your secret recipe of magic potion.

Well, I have no regrets. Because how can I uncover such kind of magic trick if I did not experience it from the magician himself?

It’s funny how your name sounds like my favorite biscuits.

You are a breath of fresh air in my toxic world.

Just right after I called everything quits,

You formed me like a pot from a clay that broke.

Like a sister to a brother, you annoy me

Your laughter is a paint of yellow

Like a signboard I wasn’t warned about

I changed lanes with your bubbly hello.

I came as a joke that you made true

I was just kidding with a kid like you

But you turned our laughter to happiness

And we shared each other’s sadness.

I opened the back door for you

I didn’t know you’d actually come in

Now there’s no going out

Because you can never come again.#

You walked away with another. I walked away alone.

Maybe you were right. You were good at playing, not just basketball but with words too. You have a gifted tongue. You kissed me so well and I drowned. Little did I know I already drowned enough by the words from your tongue and almost killed me.

Like how you handled basket balls, you tossed and turned me. You are a selfish ball-handler. You dominate everyone on the court when you know you can’t do it all without the others. You did not just made fouls, you are the foul, you fool!

At first I thought we were like magnets, governing opposites attract. We have been into some harsh downfalls and challenges but you became weak so quick that we never attract anymore. The universe know we were parallel lines. We were blind to believe that we can change the rules. But the universe was not messing with us.

I never left you. I just left us. But you walked away with another. I just walked away alone.

I never ended our story. I did not say a word. I felt I needed the space to heal the wounds brought by the blindness we had in believing things.

I was just a fire to you after all. You never realized I felt we were a flame. You thought you made me warm but I was burned so deep. You were not even air to me. You were just a breeze.

I guess I saw it before it even happened that’s why God did not let me say those words for you because maybe they were meant for someone else.

I thought if I have talked to you, you would stay long. But I guess I’m not gonna regret it.

My unspoken words became written. And it remained longer than forever.

You set up a fire for me

But your heat burned me enough to feel cold.

You made my nights warm and my life freeze

But your blaze went out fast blown by your own breeze.

That was the moment when you and I met

Our eyes and feelings crossed, I did not get

Everything went slow-mo and I flattered

Things went right and I just cant say a word.

That was the moment when things felt so fine

The time when I was yours and you were mine

All issues around us we haven’t seen

Love is what we felt, you know what I mean.

All happy moments we spent together

I cry if I suddenly remember

I know it has been two years since that day

And I cannot move on with an okay.

I’m still getting over, getting over

I cannot go on like this forever

I just want to get through

Gotta do this and get over you.

I wish you would realize that those doors

Were the best you had when I was still yours

I am still suffering, you should have seen

Since Fifth of October Twenty-thirteen.#

I saw you, you were in red

You were standing in a nice tree’s shed

I was in pink, nervous and walking

And thought I saw you smiling.

That day when my eyes hit you

My feelings came back to true

The memories of our bounced again

All that happened before, what and when.

The thing that surprised me most

When you suddenly appeared like a ghost

And you asked me of my phone number.

I started feeling feeling the love over and over

Just a few hours, you texted me

You said you saw me and you were happy

And there goes your confessions

I was flattered by your revelations

You promised to love me no matter what

You promised to be with me with these and that

You assured a serious relationship

Whatever happens, we will be clipped.

I fell in love by all you said

All my emotions fell and floated

It feels like I’m standing to no floors

Knowing again that you’re mine and I’m yours.#

Above all the organs, I feel

Such passion for you

Rivers and streams may stop flowing

Still loving you true.

You have neglected and swiped me

You can’t see me through

But though whatever happens

I’m still here for you.

You have seen, heard and have felt

All of my affections

I never stopped caring for you

Whatever occasion.

Still you shunned and evaded me

In any means you do

All of your words are wounding me

Am I nothing to you?

It hurts. It really hurts.

Not recognizing me

I am not doing that to you

That’s how I love thee.

But if that is who you are now

And that’s what you want

I will give you that freedom

Though I know I cant.

I unconditionally love you

Yes, of course I do

That’s why I am letting you go

Cause I love you so

I am praying that time will come

You shall love me too

And forget all things in the past

We’ll start something new.

I am praying for your forgiveness

And see the real thee

We’ll begin again together

As one family.#

This burning passion of great depth

Walks into you and holds you tightly

Even if it would chase its shadows

Patiently waiting to hold the air

Still, it’ll always long only for you.

These countless dawns may break the night

And the Earth’s soil may crack and may breach

The butterfly repeats its cycle

Tall grasses will dominate the land

Still, it’ll always long only for you.

Up to the time that the climate shifts

When all the river lose its water

If the world ran out of words to write

And men have no more to discover

Still, it’ll always long only for you.

‘Till all pain becomes really painful

When anger and anguish rule all hearts

Empires may take over everything

All conical mountains may erupt

Still, it’ll always long only for you.

And when you fail to retain your best

Lose yourself and get lost on the way

When you’re falling with no ground to crush

Up to the time of fag end of lives

Still, I will always choose to love you.#

You the brightest star in the night sky

Can so notice you though I’m snowed under

Got a glimpse of an angel forever

You are my beautiful wings when I fly

I could keep singing the notes that are high

Just to keep our flaming fire together

I wouldn’t mind if the time’s so clever

I don’t care as long as there’s you and I

Everything’s so perfect when I’m with you

Flowers and grasses seem to be dancing

You and I could lie in the clouds above

With this firing passion so real and true

How will I understand this kind o’feeling

I’m finally falling, falling in love.#