isolation

you should have been here
and brought me that smile
wiped my worries and tears
and say, "sorry i was late a while".

you should have been here
and sent me those love letters
effaced all of my fuss and fears
and say, "you will be better"

you should have been here
and stopped me from waiting
but i see now all of it is clear
that you were never even coming

i have been calling out your name
and not even a ghost of you came
for you i'd rather wait and then die
than live without a hope you'd arrive.